prettymixingbowl

here’s my face…. felt pretty after work yesterday.
i’m also realizing why women complain about being pregnant in the third trimester. i can feel Jolie moving from all sides, especially when i’m at work and have been standing around for a long time (or even more so when i’ve been cleaning up the shoes/handbags room and doing the displays). and more and more i’m realizing that i’m not as ready to be a mom as i hoped i would be. i’m 30 weeks today, and don’t have all of the things i need to bring this little girl into the world. no crib, no breast pump, not enough bottles or diapers, no wipes, no blankets… no baby shower, no birth plan, nothing is planned as far as where the hell we will live (our leases expire the same week we’re due so we have to move by then) and no money saved for anything. also, we have no food. and i no longer receive benefits from the state.i have bills in the thousands, loans in the thousands, med bills in the thousands, and more. i feel like if i would have made the choice to do this on my own i would have become a lot more prepared a lot sooner. obviously my boyfriend doesn’t have a clue what to do. sorry ranting. ugh.